An Open Letter To My Angel In Heaven

To my coach on Earth and my angel in Heaven,

Even though you have been gone for two years now, the loss of you still hasn’t completely sunk in. I still catch myself looking for you in places that you would normally be, hoping that maybe the next glance I take, I’ll get to see your smile just one last time. Your contact is still in my phone, I still drive past your house, and I still hope to hear your contagious laugh or see your beautiful smile in a crowd. If I had to pick one word to describe how life has been since you passed, it would certainly be the word different. I wanted to take the time to thank you for some things I might have not gotten the chance to say, but still hold so close to my heart.

1. Thank you for teaching me unconditional love.

You always accepted everyone for who they were. Whether they were one of the world’s greatest, or someone with a terrible past, you told everyone to leave it at the door. Your home was the happiest of homes, and people have never felt more accepted anywhere else. Thank you for always opening up your door to me and to our team, to all of our friends, and even to community members you may not have ever met. You were such a giving person and your selflessness is an inspiration in my heart every day.

2. Thank you for encouraging me.

There was nothing like a compliment from you. I looked forward to your encouragement, because you always had a way of picking me up even when I was at some of my lowest points. Thank you for your text messages, voicemails, Facebook posts, and everything else that I still have saved. Your encouragement was always a testament to your love, and to your beautiful soul.

3. Thank you for always listening to my problems.

It’s hard for me to open up to people, but whenever I had an issue, you were always one of the first people I came to. No matter what the problem was, friend issues, boy troubles, or just plain old drama, you would listen. You always just listened, never judging about what I was stressed about, just thinking about what you could do to make me feel better. This comfort is one of the biggest things I miss about you here on Earth, and nothing will ever fill the void.

4. Thank you for being my biggest fan.

You always told me I could do whatever I wanted in life as long as I worked hard for it. I’m pretty sure you were convinced I was the best at everything, even if I didn’t move off the bench during an entire sports game. You believed in me when I didn’t believe in myself. You always pushed me to do more, be better, try harder, and keep going, and for that you kept me going and taught me how to run on my own.

But most importantly:

5. Thank you for being my role model.

Growing up with you in my life, I really got to learn why people adore you so much. When it comes down to it, you are the nicest person I know. You never really got mad, and when you were, you faked like you weren’t pretty well. You loved everyone, even if you had only met them once. You cared about people’s well-being, more than you cared about your own. People asked so much of you, but you never expected anything in return. I watched you do so much and love so hard, and that takes a very special type of person. A true angel on Earth.

You gained your wings too soon, and selfishly I wish you could still be here with me. I really could have spent a lifetime chatting over iced coffee and calling you for all of my advice. I wish I was able to send you my wedding invites and have you along on my journey, but I know you watch over me, and all I can say is I can’t wait to see you again someday. I love you so much, my angel.

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